The purpose of this page is to layout every conversation and viewpoint I have regarding everything. If I have a conversation with someone surrounding the topic of how the world works, then I add it here.
Things may not make sense and seem out of context, but this is mainly to be comprehensible to me and a basic framework for how my mind works.
It is not intended to be an overly thought-out essay with connecting ideals. Things will be out of place and may contradict.
Feel free to message me about anything discussed: You know where to find me.
The version you are reading was last updated: 6/18/2026.
This is not a finished web-page.
This is not the final copy.

Death:

My basic explanation of my belief regarding the afterlife/religion is that you go wherever you desire to go once you die. You believe you go to Heaven? You will go to Heaven.
Personally, I think reincarnation is what will happen to me. You're similar personality wise in every life. However, the things you're interested in are carried on into the next.
For example, if I developed an interest animals in my last life, I am likely to also be interested in them in the next life. You carry things on from one life to the next, learn little lessons that stay with your soul.
I think when you finish learning all the lessons the universe believes you need, then you truly find peace. I don't understand why, or how souls are created... or how they're destroyed, if they're destroyed. I just know that I'll likely be free within the next few lives. Maybe after this one.
I think I only know about this stuff because the universe thinks I'm almost ready, so it would make sense if this was my last.
Endless eternity would be my ideal of true peace.
Think of everything positive ever. Everything you've ever felt that gave you a sense of joy. That feeling of warmth you get from love. The comfort from everything you enjoy. Imagine all those feelings being felt all at once all the time forever, and without any thoughts to spiral into. You just exist one within the universe. However, you will never experience it because you lack a consciousness to comprehend. Most comparable to blissful ignorance.
Personally, I believe that I was very evil in past lives, and I'm atoning for my sins in this one. However, the true purpose of this life is to see if my soul is inherently evil. Since it is not and I live being a good man, I am proving to the universe that I deserve to be rewarded in the next.
I cannot die until the universe thinks I'm ready, learned my lesson, or entirely shown without a doubt that my soul is good/bad. That's where the split timelines come into play where I always survive every near death experience.
If I'm good, I will be sent to my desired timeline in the next life, and then eternity after that. If I've learned all my lessons, of course.
My desired time is just where I'm meant to be. Where my hearts at, whatever timeline I would find the most pleasure in.
I believe religion in general (one's that worship a higher being) is simply just a concept that should give you a set layout of rules and moral on how to live your life. It's for the people who are truly lost and cannot make decisions on their own, i.e. simple minded folk.
If being Christian stops you from raping and killing everyone, then good for you, be a Christian then.

Eugenics:

I support the idea of Eugenics, but I do not believe it could be done correctly in our current society.
Yes, in a perfect world, I would not want anyone to be disabled or mentally ill, but there's a very fine line that you cannot cross when it comes to the practice.
Once you cross that line, it becomes Fascism.
Should disabled and mentally ill people have children? I want that decision to be up to them, not the state, but I believe there should be a widespread education campaign that explains why it would be a bad idea for the evolution of the human race for people with such problems to reproduce.
It would be a positive outcome for our society.
However, I do not want them to be forcefully sterilized if they can comprehend the consequences of childbirth, i.e., are not mentally retarded.
I simply believe that these medical issues should be eradicated.
Once again, like Communism, this would never work out!
We humans, are power-hungry. To further our own agendas and care only for ourselves, we do not think about those who come after us.
This is why all politicians are such pigs. They care only for themselves.

People:

I refuse to engage with most people online: they lack the ability to have civil debates and the willingness to accept that their viewpoint may be wrong or can be changed.
I've never been able to relate to other people my age, simply because I've always had a higher level of maturity and understanding of the things around me.
Hell, I was smart enough to be reading psychology books in Elementary school; it's not too far-fetched to consider that I wouldn't get along with the other kids when they're interested in things like Pokémon instead.
Side note: I was also reading books about the Holocaust, Jeffrey Dahmer, and severe childhood abuse while others read "I Survived" and "Animorphs."
I've been a freak since birth.
I see other kids my age in public, and I have this understanding that they and I are not on the same level. They're concerned about social media and school drama. I couldn't care less about those types of things.
People jump from trend to trend with no awareness of who they are anymore and how the world works. The propaganda on social media is destroying our youth, ruining their brains, and making them easily manipulable.
Everything online is propaganda, especially if it has an algorithm.
You get stuck in an endless loop of seeing things that will keep you watching and latched onto Big Brother's leaking nipple. They all slurp it down like it's the best thing they've ever tasted, while ignoring the fact that they've simply never tasted anything else.
They want you dumb, and they want your children dumb.
Very isolating world we live in.

Misinformation:

Misinformation is a huge problem.
I make sure to fact-check everything I see, especially if I have the intent of sharing it with other people. With articles, I will search up every party involved, even going as far as reading about the people who founded the specific companies that funded the research cited.
I do not support censorship, but I question my own beliefs as social media usage destroys more and more of society.
I do not want to outright ban it, but I believe there must be an alternative solution to erraticate it's usage within the general population.
I pray that the AI bubble bursts and destroys modern technology as we know it.
Somehow, someway.

“do you believe in a god, or would your 'god' just be the universe?”

I am the universe, we all are. If the universe is god, then we are god
God implies a separate being, and there is no separate being

“why do you think this? i've always been intrigued by people who view everything as one”

Why should I believe that there is something more powerful than you or I?
I can't find any comfort in the idea, even if it's not supposed to be comforting. I would rather not choose that such an evil thing exists.
If there is a god, then it is an evil god.
It has the power to bring us all peace for eternity, but decides to inflict suffering upon our souls. Why?
I reject the idea. I reject your god

"do you think that god would have the same idea of morality as a human? would he have to be aware of how humans suffer to be considered a god?
would you consider that god is making us all suffer for a grand purpose that we don't understand?”

I think people without a spiritual belief simply have no care in understanding more about the depths of the world, and I wish I had that level of ignorance.
Ignorance is how most people stay happy.
I myself practice ignorance by refusing to learn about what's happening in the news, because I would rather be happy than in the know.
I do not want to know, and I'm okay with that. I am okay with being considered intellectually simple or, "dumb," because of this as well. I wish I was dumb, because then at least I would be easily happy.
Let's say there is a God.
God would not have the same morality as a human, because human morality is based off societal standards.
For example: Incest is immoral, but only because society deems it to be.
God does not live within our society, and would not have the same standards or ideals as we do.
God would not have a morality, because God would understand everything, and that includes the understanding that immoral acts to us could be considered good depending on every feasible possibility in the entire universe
and every alternative universe where a scenario in which that act could happen.
There are trillions of different scenarios where an act could be considered good or bad based on very miniscule changed circumstances.
God would have no concept of good or evil.
Good or evil would not matter to God. It is a human concept. Everything is simply just what it is.
God would be aware of everything.
God would understand everything.
God would feel everything.
God would know everything.
That is what I would consider a true God.
If God is making us suffer for a grand purpose, then God, once again, is evil and I reject it.

Well, I would imagine that if you are ignorant, then you would have no desire to feel fulfilled.
This is why I dislike thinking too heavily about how to define what god is.
There is no answer, and whatever answer there is, is likely incomprehensible.
No matter what I say, I will never be right

“from my current viewpoint i would prefer to be knowledgeable and not happy about it than retarded and happy,
and i try not to think about the latter because it makes me more unhappy than i already am since it's an unrealistic goal. i would never be able to willingly huff enough paint to become a retard.”

I'm unsure where I stand regarding that.
My entire self-imposed purpose is to make myself happy, but with the grant of knowledge, I have to learn how to find a good balance.
The smartest people are usually the most depressed, simply because they understand too much and everything seems to lose meaning.
I doubt I would willingly make myself retarded in the pursuit of happiness, though, because one of my biggest fears is lacking consciousness.
I am as happy as I can get, and even though to the average person that may not be deemed true happiness, emotions are what I decide they are.

“if you're afraid of lacking consciousness and believe that there is no consciousness in the blissful eternity after your soul passes on,
are you afraid of passing on into that afterlife? would you willingly change your beliefs about the universe to make yourself happy?”

No, I find comfort in the afterlife.
I can't be afraid of what I will not experience.
Who I am right now will not experience the afterlife.
I am my consciousness.
Without a consciousness, I am nothing.

“would you say that if you lost your consciousness while still alive you would exist?”

My body would exist, but I wouldn't.

“i think that hallucinations are evidence that the physical realm is a veil to cover something else up rather than truth”

A lot of hallucinations may also just be our brain misinterpreting things that we can't comprehend.
I doubt I actually see demons, but my brain may interpret whatever I'm seeing as a demon in order for me to easily comprehend the energy of what's there.
For all I know, it could simply be a manifestation of something that we as humans do not know about, but inherently evil, so I view it demonically because that is the closest thing to evil there is.